I thought about it

I thought about it, you know.
Every once in a while, we’d be in there-changing a film or whatever, talking.
And I’d just think to myself ‘What if I just said it, just told her how I felt? What would happen?’
And every time I played it out in my head, the same thing happened.
Exactly what happened when I did tell you, eventually, by text.
By text?! Jesus.
But if I actually had, at the time?
Would you have just gotten it? Realised, like I had, that we just fit?
Or would the reaction have been just as painful,
Plus humiliating?
I guess I’ll never know now.
Although, I’ve thought about that too.